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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 00:05

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Would this be the day?

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Why is it after eating almonds when I’m occupied, I don’t feel mild itch, but as soon as I have nothing to do, I feel mildly itchy?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

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He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

My family never makes their pension either.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My life is so biszare .

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

And i lived it daily.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

What is the difference between heaven and heavens?

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Especially a lifetime of it.

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We were not on the streets..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I said to her

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Was to survive, this bastard.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

I write beautiful poetry .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I think the readers, may guess!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

But it wasn’t much.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im still living with it.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She found it foreign!.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

(And it was in our own minds.)

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She married twice! .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

What did i know ?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

One cannot live in the past .

She was in good health!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

She wouldn,t have been !

He knew the spot.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I was very sick at this time too.

Ive learnt so much.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I will be 64.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

It was going to be , some day.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I could never make a relationship work though!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

He resisted the act ,that day.

I waited trembling.

I don,t even have a pension.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

We all went to grammer schools

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I was scared of men, in general

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

She loved him until the end.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Why did i forgive my father ?

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was 9 years of age.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My mum and dad in the seventies!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

When she asked me how she looked .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

So, i spoilt her more .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I have no regrets .

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Who then, do I blame.?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Comes on , in middle age.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

This is soul school!.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But, we were locked up after school.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

So whats the point in blame.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

All the time i was locked up.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I was seconnd youngest,

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Put me off passion for life!!