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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 13:40

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

When she asked me how she looked .

Especially a lifetime of it.

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

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But ive been too sick for many years..

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Why don’t people show patriot Donald Trump the respect he deserves? He’s successful in business, politics, and with the ladies.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He resisted the act ,that day.

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That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

You hold the door open for a lady and she stops in her tracks and screams at you, ‘Don’t hold the door for me! I’ll get it myself!’ What are your feelings or immediate reaction?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

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This is soul school!.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We all went to grammer schools

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

It was going to be , some day.

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I said to her

But, we were locked up after school.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I know ,a lot about trauma.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I was 9 years of age.

I write beautiful poetry .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Im still living with it.

Ive learnt so much.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He knew the spot.

All the time i was locked up.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

So, i spoilt her more .

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I waited trembling.

And i lived it daily.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

So whats the point in blame.

(And it was in our own minds.)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

She married twice! .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Who then, do I blame.?

I don,t even have a pension.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

She wouldn,t have been !

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

As i do to all so called friends.?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

But it wasn’t much.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I never cut or harmed myself..

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

What did i know ?

My life is so biszare .

She loved him until the end.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was seconnd youngest,

Put me off passion for life!!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Why did i forgive my father ?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

One cannot live in the past .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I have no regrets .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I was very sick at this time too.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

We were not on the streets..

My family never makes their pension either.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Comes on , in middle age.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I will be 64.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

She was in good health!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Would this be the day?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She found it foreign!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I was scared of men, in general

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I think the readers, may guess!